Dear Mom,

Things are difficult now that you are gone.

I miss you so much and I want to call you and talk about all of it but I can't.

Dad isn't speaking to me anymore, neither is Heather... and Brendon gets so irritated each time I try to tell him something about the house or money or anything that it's almost like I'm talking to dad... Which hurts just as much.

I miss you mom and I wish you were here with me... at our house... sitting next to me on the couch... being alive and willing to listen and willing to talk with me.

I love you...

Nicole